This conversation with Ces actually took place in MY Wake me up when September ends post last September 29. And it happened in the wee hours of October 2. Imagine ganung oras we were talking about LOVE. Compared it to fairytales, roller coaster and even harry potter. It just so happened that after that conversation, we realized na WOW ano ba itong mga pinagsasasabi natin? It’s just like so mature. Aliw. Ang dami naming natutunan even if nanggaling sa sarili namin yung mga pinagsasasabi namin dito. I myself could not believe that nasabi at naisip ko yung mga pinagsasasabi ko jan. At dahil dun, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko to copy and paste our conversation from our comments in my said post HERE in yet another blog post to share it to everyone! So i hope you enjoyed reading this and you learned something from this. COMMENT KAYO HA?
CES: let us both move on max. not because it’s over but because we owe ourselves the chance to start anew. we loved and end of the day, that’s all that matters. gaya nan ia-advice ko sa kanya tomorrow, let’s forgive ourselves max and give ourselves the chance to take a stab at happiness and pray for another shot at love. i think i’m lucky kase sa ngayon, ako yon matibay samen dalawa. ako yon intact and ako an umiintindi. gift ko yon from god kase at least hinde ako yon lost and hinde ako yon destroyed. not that the other is pero at least hinde ako ruined and mabuti na lan buo paren ako. humihinga and kahet bruised, scarred and all.. proud ako at nakatayo paren ako. salamat paren talaga sa Kanya.
GAUX: oo nga, diba i’m moving on na talaga 🙂 since the night or the dawn i’ve accepted that “it can’t be”. i’ve let go. but even if i did let go or is moving on, hindi pa rin mashadon healed, shempre it’ll take time talaga diba!
and yeah, diba nga i won’t frown & regret that it happened but Smile and be thankful that it happened that once again in my life i fell inlove.
EVEN if this, yung mga heartbreaks, eh nanyari.. i still believe in love. i still have faith in love. i still believe that someday my prince will come even if not now. i don’t want to kiss frogs. i’d rather sleep for 100 hundred years in my castle and wait for my prince to kiss me. I don’t want to meet any other beasts because too much na yung very first beast in my life. I know one day… my aladdin will come and we’ll ride his magic carpet and he would show me the shining shimering splendid world 🙂 and finally my once upon a time will be a happily ever after 🙂 (i actually placed this in my friendster as part of my about me profile)
and i’m happy kasi hindi ka na as destroyed as yesterday and nakatayo ka na like me 🙂 and ikaw naman ang maging strength niya.. 🙂
CES: eto nga ata role naten mga babae. taga-anak sa kanila, taga intindi, taga alaga.. in short, glorified yaya. haha. no, but kidding aside, falling inlove should never cause us to regret.
let’s build our tower (or castle) together, max. let’s make sure na magkalapit lan para makakapag sleepover paren ako and ikaw saken and we’ll continue or movie marathons there as we await for our princeses to come. and no matter how long they take, i know it will be worth the wait.
since then alam kon i’m ready to fall madly, deeply inlove and when i realized na hinde siya mutual at this time, alam kon it’s not anyone’s fault. i may be ready but the one He has made especially for me may not be ready just yet and alam kon He’s taking so much time on him kase He’s ensuring na when He does give him to me, todo na yon happily ever after ko. na pagdumatin na siya finally, buon buo na kame pareho at kaya na namen i-share sa isa’t isa an mga sarili namen. ikaw din max. God is prepping up your Mr. Destiny. God knows how magical our needs are (mental tayo e) and that we need equally magically wonderful men to complete our soon to be magical world.
for the meantime, sabi nga nan friend ko, we don’t need a prince to make us a princess. and haban wala pa sila (siguro napilay yon kabayo or nasiraan yon karwahe nila), let’s practice and improve on our being princesses para pagdatin nila, ehem, ready na tayo magin Queen nila.
hindi ko talaga kinaya. hindi ko na ma basa ng malakas dahil sa kakatawa. sakit tuloy ng chan ko ngayon. kmusta naman yun. hahahaha. hungerrrry pa naman ako.
kung ang guys Tigasin (tiga saing, tiga laba tiga luto tiga plantsa)….tayo palang girls, tagasin naman. hahaha.
hahaha. kailangan yung castle ganun, sige para magsigawan na lang tayo para hindi na yung magka-comment na tayo dito, tapos magka chat at magka usap sa fone diba? para di nakakapagod. hehehehe. Tumpak, kahit dumoble na haba ng hair ko, basta siya’y naglakas loob umakyat ng tower ko gamit ang buhok ko, sure why not. pero parang masakit yun ah? mahihila yung anet ko. sakit. haha. pero ganun talaga ang love eh, me mapagdadaanan ka talagang pain diba? before siya makarating sa tuktok at mapunta ka sa arms ng iyong prince charming.. yun ay kung charming talaga siya. hehehehe.
Mutual pa yan. the fact that he said i love you. it is. diba? hehehehe
OO nga si Mr. destiny ko nasa own world pa rin siguro niya, trying to be happy with what’s happening in his life, fixing up his confusion and straightening out his path, para pag ready na siya, sasabak na daw kami. hehehe. And he’ll pull out his wand and say “Lumos!” kasi maliwanag na ang gusto niya mangyari sa buhay niya eh diba? and we’re gonna make magic together na mala- harry potter na! (bat ganun??? nasa fairytale tayo kanina napunta sa witchcraft and wizardy.. kakaiba… mental talaga tayo)
and yeah, baka naging pumpkin lang ulit yung carriage nila or nagutom yung horsey lumamon muna… kaya mejo natagalan. Don’t worry may mga alam na rin ako in being a Princess, kasi i’veread My Princess Lessons & Perfect Princess books.. all part of Princess Diaries. ahahahha.. that’s learning how to become a princess. and part of becoming a princess is waiting. =)
CES: sabi nga nila, you will never experience being perfectly happy if you’ve never been perfectly hurt. i guess we will never be completely be okay unless we completely feel pain. pana-panahon lan to siguro max. mukhan binagyo nga tayo this past days pero naniniwala paren ako na what doesn’t kill us will only make us stronger.. and granted nga na tayo an tagasin, kelangan naten lalon magpalakas.. hay. the things you have to do just to have someone to say i love you to..
i guess what i’m trying to say is.. mahirap magmahal. para kan nasa roller coaster. paikot ikot. nakakahilo. minsan nakakabaliw. nakakatakot.. minsan nasusuka ka pa sa sobran panget nan pakiramdam mo. pero hinde mo madedeny na while you were up there, you’ve never felt more free and you’ve never felt more happy. if you’re lucky and brave enough, you can even stretch out your hands and wave them frantically. that’s real happiness. that’s real love.. you break free from your own world and welcome a new somebody to enter into it. and minsan, pag may ayaw na sa ride, you have to pull the emergency stop and since ayaw mo nan makita silan nasasaktan (literal translation: nasusuka), ikaw pa yon hahatak nan safety bar nila and ikaw pa magpapababa sa kanya. ikaw pa an magsasabi nan “tama na muna to, hinde mo na kaya”. ngayon nakababa na siya, nasa sayo na lan yon kun sasamahan mo siya sa baba o tutuloy ka sa ride. minsan dahil nanhihinayan ka, tutuloy ka mag isa.. pero pag tumatakbo na siya ulet, you look sa tabi mo and you’ll realize na malungkot byumahe mag isa.
ako i chose to pull the emergency stop myself and lift his safety bar. kaya nga safety bar e para sana maalagaan ko siya.. hinde para i-agonize. i guess i’m doing the bravest thing i’ve ever done my whole life.. to decide on letting it go without the assurance if it’s coming back. i wish i knew what may come out of this.. i wish i knew what His plans are pero for now, i’m giving back God the pen and paper. siya na magsulat nan love story ko.. i know naman na it will end with a happily ever after.
GAUX: oo nga. tama ka jan. coz i know, after all the PAIN we’ve been through, there’s always a rainbow that would ‘smile’ at us after the rain even after Milenyo. think south border naman. XD
wow. ngayon, nandito na tayo “where the magic began!” at Enchanted Kingdom or the unlucky Star City. ehem. ehem. I like that rollercoaster part. OO nga, i remember myself in a rollercoaster, naka stretch pa ang hands. super saya and i have my own world in my seat. though i’m alone that time, at least walang kinakatakot, and in your situation, walang inaalagaan. sarili ko lang coz i know kaya ko naman yung ride eh. but sometimes, i wish that sana, i could ride it with someone. someone who would be stretching out his hands with me, holding my hands. tapos sabay sigaw. kasi weeeeeeeeeeeh!! ang sarap!!! a feeling that would make us free from everything, every hurt every pain. Me sarili ngang mundo diba?in that world, it’s only a wonderland of love. so bawal yung mga pain dun. Then again, sometimes may takot pa rin tayo sumakay sa isang roller coaster. shempre, takot tayo na may mangyaring masama sa atin. BUT, since gusto natin sumakay, kahit takot tayo, sasakay tayo, then you’ll become brave. LIKE in LOVE, takot tayo na pumasok sa isang relationship/commitment, kasi ayaw natin masaktan or makasakit. Pero dahil ”mahal” na natin yung isang tao, kahit anong takot natin, haharapin pa rin natin siya, we’ll be brave kasi we know that it will make us happy.
kakaiba na itong critical thinking natin……. kung san san na natin na icocompare si love.
I second the motion and let God continue writing/directing my Love Story ❤
CES: the concept of getting hurt or something bad happening is always the root cause of a love story gone wrong. and that’s one thing i don’t ever want to have. i’d rather lose my voice as i scream through the fear and cry from the pain other than being safe on the ground while knowing full well you will never be half as happy as you would be if you were to take that chance. love, like an amusement ride, will be ultimately scary at first. that’s why the seats are always in two’s.. it’s to always make us feel that despite the tumbles and turns of the ride, so long as you’re hand in hand with that incredible special someone, no time up there ever feels wasted.. thus every single second will be cherised. it takes a lot to decide on to go on that ride. it takes courage and a lot of trust in the one beside you but then.. that’s the way it goes. only complete trust and full on bravery can make you stand the twists and turns of the ride. i say once you’re there, enjoy. don’t look down.. and if you do need to look down, only do that to remind yourself how amazing it feels to be up there instead of being the one down there staring up and thinking “i could’ve been that happy”.
bottomline.. love is one of the most difficult, confusing and most complicated things in this world but also.. it is a most wonderful gift we are priveleged to have exist in our lives. it is a gift we must take hold of and when it does get here.. wow. it will explode in the deepest corners of your heart and melt away every known pain, agony and hurt you’ve ever been through.
one day our princes will come, they will be both be gorgeous (yon sayo look alike ni Oliver James and yon akin hawig ni Prince William), they will sweep us off our feet and show us a world even more magical than the ones we had in our dreams.
deal or no deal!